Saturday, October 8, 2011

Well it's been a year now

As you know it has been a very hard year for me trying to pick up the pieces and be me again without him, it's just still a struggling issue. I have tried different avenues to get me together and it's better some days than others but still leaves me thinking and veering off course. I keep busy but it's not really where I am trying to get back to but simply accomplishing things that we spoke of doing around the house and I am coming to the end of that road. I finally got some closure. My husband now has his marker (after a year, numerous phone calls, a lawyer and them putting it on someone else's loved one's grave. Just another chapter). Now, I am dealing with the fact that a very close family member has been very recently diagnosed with breast cancer. I truly pray that it's in very early stages and all is contained, better yet that they are totally wrong!
I have been working on updating my website. Started a memorial page dedicated to those of us that grieve for a loved one and I have several books that I ordered and working on reading to help me through this. The one I am in now "How to go on living when someone you love dies" by Therese A. Rando, Ph.D. I finished "When will I stop hurting" by June Cerza Kolf and I do know now that I am not going crazy with these torrents of emotions.
I can't remember if I said this but I have been taking guitar lessons, I think it will be a while before I really make sounds that I recognize. lolrothf I have a baby finished named Cameron, but I can't show any pictures until the contest is over in a couple of weeks! LOL I love how beautiful the skin tone coloring came out and the mohair from TNGUN is so wonderful and it stays baby soft, she may be my top mohair supplier next to Slumberland!

From my heart to yours... Hugs, Judie